So my last post was a bit heavy hearted. Ok, ok, a lot heavy-hearted! I admit that we are still walking through some dark and troubling days. And, I still feel very much like we are waiting to hear the final diagnosis. However, we do not wait without hope.
As a young girl, I took some dance lessons. I was not really born to be a dancer, but I wanted to be! So after dance class, I would run through all of the moves we had learned to whatever dance we were working on. I would play them over and over again in my head. I often didn’t have the actually music to the song we were performing so I would try to “hear” it in my head. (It was before the days of internet and youtube!) It was also before, "Dancing with the Stars" or I would have added that to my dream!
As I was pondering our situation and anticipating some upcoming court dates, it stuck me that that those dance days are somewhat like our life right now. Though I cannot “hear” God working...I am able to move forward knowing that I have walked through these moves before. That I have already rehearsed with music times when I could see God moving and “hear” what He was saying. So now, without the music, I must have the faith to run through the dance. The truth is, the music is still playing (God is still here and working), but for this season, I must move forward without hearing it. Hebrews 11:1 reminds us that, "Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see," so though I am sometimes troubled by all that may lie ahead, I will lace up my dancing shoes and begin moving through the steps I have rehearsed so many times before. My dance partner is amazing and He knows all the steps...in fact He even created the music!