I had a job interview this morning and things were clipping along rather well, and then...it happen! She asked me a question I couldn't answer. I took the question in stride and fiddled up some half hearted answer but it has been bothering me ever since. The question was quite typical, "Where do you see yourself in ten years?" and yet I really truly didn't and still, hours later, don't know the answer. I guess I should, it is a typical interview question, it's just that ten years ago, I didn't see myself here.
Ten years ago, I was Momma to 4: Jeremiah was 8, Myrah 6, Jennah 5, and Mikaylah 2. I had just ended our homeschooling journey and was sending my oldest three off to public school for the first time. My heart was heavy at the thought of days gone by and I was just starting to contemplate reentering the working world. My husband was working a construction job and ministry was only a glimmer of hope on the distant horizon.
Fast forward ten years. My husband is a full time pastor, and I am now Momma to 7, ages 18, 16, 15, 12, 4, 2, and 7 months. I have just taken my oldest to college (How did that even happen?) and today my 3 older girls had there first day of school. My heart is heavy at the thought of days gone by and once again I am thinking about reentering the working world! Funny how life changes and stays the same all at the same time!
Proverbs 29:18 tells us. "Where there is no vision, the people will perish." So it would seem that making a plan, having a vision for where we think we are headed, is a good, life sustaining thing. In fact, ten years ago I had a plan! Of course my reality looks nothing like the plan I had mapped out! But then if we look back at Proverbs 16:9 we can read, "The mind of man plans his way, But the Lord directs his steps." Now this more accurately describes my journey! This verse reminds me that, though it is good to have a goal, or a vision in sight, it is more important to be open to what God's purpose, or plan for you is.
A lot of things have happened in the last ten years that I could not have foreseen ten years ago, some of them good, some of them bad, all of them God ordained! And I guess that is the only thing we can be certain of ten years from now! So where do I see myself in ten years? I guess the best answer I can give is, "In God's hands!"